Look over these tough battered pages
Read about the past
So thrilling
So heart filling.
Turn the page, read on.
These words say things I never could.
Close the book, and stare at the stark green cover.
Oh, this book just goes to show the evasion of a lover.
Flick the ignition, hold the gas
Soon this smoke of scent fills the room, flowing to the nose,
To the lungs, to my memory filled mind.
Strokes of the pencil, beating down on these old worn pages,
Just another page in the book of my past three years.
Turn the page back again, read it all
It seems so foreign, so surreal.
Was this me, did I really write that...What had I done, but most of all;
Why?
Answers elude to the questions pillaging my mind, an
My eyes grow weary  as the color of the smoke
Matches the color of the skies on this day of snow.
How much has it changed my life, this book of mine?
Green, the cover of the book, the cover of the box,
The color of the summer I so want to come.
What has been put before me,
Lord I pray it is not as what lies behind me
I feel like I've reached a checkmate in a
Part of this life, and I never want fate to repeat itself.
My concerns have never been health nor wealth, but
Oh, to be happy, in His love, and yours.
What life could be, but in the end,
All we can do is look back and see,
What we came from is what we are
So let me make today so that I can be happy.
So that I can be happy tomorrow.
Thoughts run thin, as the lines run out of space.
Close the mind, as you close the book, and get ready to close your eyes.
Today is over, and now its
Just another moment in the green book of my life.
Goodbye.